Tag: self-love

Elise’s story, “No matter what you do, people are going to talk”

Posted by – April 21, 2010

I was over 300 lbs at one time, it was horrible, I had to deal with people commenting on it all the time, I was fat, I was a whale, I pretty much have heard it all.

And then i decided enough was enough, I wanted to lose weight, not because I was sick of looking big, but I was sick of being tired, not having any energy and getting sick all the time.

So i changed my diet, and I worked out a couple hours a day, mostly walking, then running, and I do weights twice a week. I swim, I cycle, I hike, I have a very active lifestyle now.

This has caused me to lose an excessive amount of weight, and even though to me it feels like it took me forever to lose it all, I guess to some people it feels like it took no time at all.

So, now I have to battle rumors that I am anorexic, I apparently don’t eat even though I am consuming a healthy amount of calories, which for my size, is quite good. I’m a tiny person, only 5’1, and I maintain my body with a very good fitness regime.

I recently ripped up my ACL (it was stupid really, I was jogging and i stepped on a piece of loose pavement, and it caused some strain.) and the new rumors are that I’m over doing it in the gym.

I have realized now that no matter what size you are, no matter what your lifestyle is, people are going to judge. I am actually facing more criticism now that I’m smaller, than I did when I was large. When I was a size 22, I had people whispering behind my back and the odd person would say “fatty” to my face, but I find that people are more likely to say things to your face when you’re smaller, as if its okay.

The point is, negativity towards anyone’s body is just uncool, we are all shapes and sizes and I just hope that everyone realizes what I have, and that is that you can take care of yourself, you can be what society and the media says you should be, and still take heat for it.  For every one person that supports you in what you do, there are 3 people standing behind that one just waiting to tear you down.

-Elise

Each of us holds a powerful story

Posted by – April 12, 2010

I’ve been thinking a lot recently on the power of stories.

Every one of us is living out our own story.  We are putting pen to paper as we live the day to day, make decisions, set forth on adventures, find love, lose love, and find love once again in something unexpected.  Every now and then, I’ll look back on the chapters in my life story and reminisce of fond memories, remind myself of lessons learned, and plot the high points and lows.  This is all done so that I can ensure that when my life story is complete it can be looked upon as something rich with meaning, adventure, joy, and fulfilling relationships.

This story would be no fairytale, however, it would be real and raw, exposing the low points where poor decisions were made, pain was felt, and experiences of self-doubt, inadequacy, and vulnerability overcame myself.  When I think about sharing my story with others, these are always the chapters that I want to keep to myself because of the pain and shame that is evoked during those times.  However, as hard as these memories may be to share with others, these are where I allow others to peer into the caverns of my soul, helping people to learn through my own experience.  That makes my story powerful.

We all have a story.  It may not be like the tale of Frodo Baggins of Lord of the Rings or Jake Sully in Avatar but it doesn’t mean our story isn’t any less important to relay to others.  Each of us holds a powerful story and it is when we communicate this that we see this power our life story can exhibit.

We are all storytellers. Let us all be storytellers and change lives through sharing the stories that are written inside our hearts.